Apni’s Alaap

Apni’s Alaap, 2024

Single-Channel Video with Sound
Duration: 6 minutes
Format: Ultra Wide 4k

Apni’s Alaap invites viewers into the world of Apni, a kinmaker and quantum listener whose name reflects her kaleidoscopic and porous identity. In Hindi, "apni" can mean yours, mine, my, hers, ours, theirs, self, or own. To call someone "apni" is to say she is one of us or that she is her own. This duality embodies the essence of belonging, blurring the boundaries between self and other—an exploration at the heart of kinmaking.

The installation features Apni as she gathers sensations from her inner and outer worlds. Moving slowly, she listens across time, matter, and spirit-space, merging her inner child with her present body. Apni becomes a sounding vessel, playfully dancing within a web of hidden songs and the dreams and desires of generations of women who raised her.

Through gentle, resonant chants, she calls herself and these alternative timelines into being. Apni’s Alaap is a love affair with the self, where gaze, voice, and body form a portal for subtle yet profound ancestral shifts.

It is believed that the first kin must always be made with oneself. Through quantum listening, Apni embodies her name, weaving complex layers of identity and connection into portals for healing wounds that traverse time.

Credits:

Artist: Surabhi Saraf
Production: Hybrid Studio
Unreal Engine Dev: Pariah Interactive 
Houdini Animation: Sneha Belkhale
Composition: Surabhi Saraf 
Sound Production & Mixing: Joshua Valleau 
Cinematography: Olga Vazquez
Styling: Paulina Olivares
HMU: Danielle Waugh, InHerBeauty
Project Manager: Estrellx Supernova